Stupid, stupid, stupid…
October 30, 2008Well, I guess I blew it again. This time I went into the chat room where R and I always meet, and I went under a different name, because he always does, and I thought maybe I’d show him how it felt not to know who you were talking to.
Long story short, BIG MISTAKE. He was in under a different name and we got in a huge fight not even knowing who we were and now it seems the whole chat room I have frequented for months as my solace in a lonely life hates me. I don’t know that he has been saying things about me, so I won’t make assumptions, but something is very strange about the sudden hatefest going on in the room where everybody knew and liked me. And I can hardly get him to talk to me because he doesn’t think I understand his point of view about what started the whole thing. I do now. But it was still a scary side of him I had never seen before and it shocked me.
So… what now? I don’t know… are we done? I wish I knew. Part of me says if he can be like that, I need to take my leave. But honestly, a bigger part of me still deeply cares for him and is extremely dismayed over what has happened. I don’t want to let go. But I don’t know that it’s my choice anymore.
Hey, Newsflash… Magpye screws up again. Stupid, stupid me.
First off, I’m sorry if my comment the other day was harsh.
You didn’t screw up. If he is taking something so strongly that he is going to the childish length to talk bad about you to others, then screw him.
Those chat rooms are addictive. Go and have a girls night out with some friends!!!!
It sounds to me like you’re going through a lot.
Men are funny creatures. The right one will come along.
Think of all of these men as your frogs, till your prince comes along.
we all make bad choices, read my blogs you will know..anyway i stay away from the chat rooms, try a night out with the girls, let your hair down and chill for a bit you will feel alot better.